"There are very few human beings who receive the truth, complete and staggering, by instant illumination. Most of them acquire it fragment by fragment, on a small scale, by successive developments, cellularly, like a laborious mosaic. "

Anais Nin

life isn't always fair...

Life and death...they are so terribly mixed up sometimes...my niece was five months pregnant when they discovered the baby was dead...so she had to give "birth" , to push out of her a little one who'll never know how she was so terribly sad...having to do this in the same hospital women rejoice with their new-borns is an awful experience...having to give the baby a name, and an official identity...may be it helps in a way...you put words on your suffering...but a miscarriage would have been stressless...Poor girl, that was her first baby...poor grandma, the same thing happened to her thirty years ago...
women have a difficult part in this world...
I joined bob's mum and lit a candle to remember ...

1 comment:

Mrs Mac said...

Hi, I am Bob's mum.

Your story reminded me of my friend, Josephine. Her daughter-in-law went to full term last year, then lost the baby the day before she was due. Terrible times.

A "normal" bereavement takes you down from "normal" mood, but these take you down from the "up" of excitement and happiness and expectation. I can only bear such things by hoping that nature knows what it is doing and that there is a reason why these innocents couldn't stay. Doesn't help at the time, though, only from a distance.

I researched my family tree this year to 1680. Found lots of women having lots of children. And I thought, all that pain, just for me to be born....

Big hugs

Helena